Category Archives: spiritual ecologies

small losses

So I mourned the loss of my marriage. And maybe even more, I mourned the loss of my hopes for the marriage. On and off, over the last couple of years I’ve thought about how much loss there has been … Continue reading

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running its course

I see that walking away from my marriage, although I didn’t want to do it initially, is completely in my best interest. Really, it was my ex who walked away.  He wanted a new life, in a new place, with … Continue reading

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pain, reconsidered

Pain does some weird things to a person. Over the last 48 hours I’ve moved from contentment to dread to deep discomfort with my discomfort. In the process, I hit a brick wall of fear and sadness. Pretty typical. Depression … Continue reading

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freeze frame

I wrote this yesterday evening and hesitated posing it. Not for any reason, just did. Yesterday was the kind of day, had you come to the high desert, you’d want to linger for a bit. Today I want to put … Continue reading

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my blood

My blood comes from the mountains of West Virginia. I came of age in the heart of a city in the Great Lakes Rust Belt. I grew up watching its traffic and its creeks and rivers, walking along the lakeshore. … Continue reading

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observe and interact

Nearly a year ago, I said I was going to write about permaculture design principles on the farm and in my life. It’s taken me a while because life can eat us up. I’ve been continuing to think about it, … Continue reading

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more dreams

My dreams are my own. My dreams are asking me to walk through places of possibility to get to them. They tell me to finally, after all of these years, to honor my own real self so I might touch … Continue reading

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a raft

This is a dream that has lived in my mind for a few years. I wrote about it, but it disappeared, probably when I screwed up this blog and almost lost the whole thing. When I don’t know what comes … Continue reading

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three women

I know a woman whose heart was sick. She was being prepared to receive another heart. Maybe another small, gentle woman’s heart, tucked into her chest, ready to keep beating and give my friend new life. I was up late … Continue reading

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letting go, again

It’s not that I believe nothing good will happen in my future. It’s more that I’m still letting go of all those dreams of the past. It’s not that I’m unable to glimpse other possibilities. It’s more that I’ve spent … Continue reading

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