Category Archives: disability

Shift, Part 2

I’ve been living with an income decrease for almost 6 months now. I prepared for the “eventful” decrease with the help of one of my sons who has some financial savvy. I’m on a scary end of this financial learning … Continue reading

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on the bad days…

I was thinking of my life 10 years ago. Just 10 years ago. Another lifetime. I was just past 50 years old. Felt very young. Felt like I was on my way. Life was full. Lots going on. My kids … Continue reading

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small losses

So I mourned the loss of my marriage. And maybe even more, I mourned the loss of my hopes for the marriage. On and off, over the last couple of years I’ve thought about how much loss there has been … Continue reading

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pain, reconsidered

Pain does some weird things to a person. Over the last 48 hours I’ve moved from contentment to dread to deep discomfort with my discomfort. In the process, I hit a brick wall of fear and sadness. Pretty typical. Depression … Continue reading

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out of place

The other day on Facebook, I wrote about how I feel like I’m becoming invisible. That day the feeling was so intense, I felt as if I might just fade into the desert landscape and blow away. I wondered what … Continue reading

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three women

I know a woman whose heart was sick. She was being prepared to receive another heart. Maybe another small, gentle woman’s heart, tucked into her chest, ready to keep beating and give my friend new life. I was up late … Continue reading

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rainy season

It’s not raining in the desert yet. I wish it were. It’s me. I’ve been crying in those still moments in the early morning and in the evening. I’m not sure what this lack of ease and well-being is. When … Continue reading

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